Rachel Carson and Dorothy Freeman were friends for the remaining 12 years of Carson's life (before she died of breast cancer) Were they lesbians? Who knows... Dorothy was apparently happily married to a man, Stanley Freeman, but she also expressed great love for Rachel in her letters. Virginia Woolf was also married, as were other lesbians from history who had to conform to the 'standard' of the day. In a recent book, Always Rachel: the letters of Rachel Carson and Dorothy Freeman, 1952-1964, an intimate portrait of a remarkable friendship (edited by Martha Freeman [Dorothy's granddaughter and published by Beacon Press), the editor tells of Rachel and Dorothy burning some of their letters to each other (Eleanor Roosevelt and Lorena Hickock did the same, to hide their love from a homophobic world that prosecuted gays.) The editor even states, "A few comments in early letters indicate that Rachel and Dorothy were initially cautious about the romantic tone and terminology of their correspondence. I believe this caution prompted their destruction of some letters within the first two years of their friendship..." (p. xvi) The editor also tells that that Dorothy and Rachel often wrote 2 letters, mailed together, sometimes in separate envelopes. One for sharing and the other just between the two women. The public letters were often addressed "Dearest" and the private letters "Darling". The sharing of letters with Dorothy's husband Stanley is even discussed. " Rachel wrote that she did not object to Dorothy's desire to share a private letter with her husband Stanley: "'And darling, I hope I made it clear in my little note that I was so glad you read him the letter- or parts of it. I want him to know what you mean to me.' This episode in the correspondence reveals that Stanley Freeman recognized and supported their love and was supported in turn by their friendship... Rachel and Stanley developed their own relationship around photography of seashore life." p. xviii Excerpts from The Letters: Jan. 1, 1954 "...As I told you, you were always with me when I wakened in the night- and I did often, not being a very good train sleeper- and always the sense of your presense, and of your sweet tenderness, and love was very real to me. And I wondered if perhaps, in the same sense, I stayed in West Bridgewater that night. You don't need to answer that, for I think I know. And let me say again how truly perfect it all was. Reality can so easily fall short of hopes and espectations, especially where they have been high. I do hope that for you, as they truly are for me, the memories of Wednesday are completely uncloded by any sense of disappointment, or of hopes unrealized. And as for you, my dear one, there is not a single thing about you that I would change if I could! Once written, that seems an odd thing to say; I am trying to express my complete and overflowing happiness in the whole thing! I have always loved these lines of Keats' and how they keep coming into my mind as describing the feeling that exitsts between us: A thing of beauty is a joy forever: Its loveliness increases; it will never Pass into nothingness; but still will keep A bower quiet for us, and a sleep Full of sweet dreams. I am certain, my dearest, that it will be forever a joy, of increasing loveliness with the years, and that in the intervals when being separated, we cannont have all the happiness of Wednesday, there will be, in each of our hearts, a little oasis of peace and "sweet dreams" where the other is." p. 15 "My darling [Dorothy}, Now I have read the letter that only you could have written. I waited until we could be alone together on the train, and it has been sweet to have you traveling with me... Darling, if one can assume anything so unthinkable as to suppose I did not know why I had dedicated the book to you,your letter would make it all clear. It is because there is no one else like you in my life- now or ever. As only you could, you summed up in the pages of your note all the sweetness and joy and deep happiness of the past two years and made me feel it all again in its fresh and delicate beauty. The one thing I wish today above all else is that as the years pass we may never come to take for granted this beautiful sympathy and udnerstanding that exist between us, but may always feel their shining wonder as we do today. For me- and I think for you too- it is set apart from all other experience. No one but you, darling, has ever expressed such lovely thoughts so beautifully as you have in your letters and in some of the precious moments we have had together in the woods or by the shore or under the night sky. And who but you would care so deeply as to wish to know what I am doing each hour of every day? When I read that in a recent letter- though it is not a new thought between us- it somehow touched me very deeply and made me wonder if I could ever express to you the warmth and joy that come with knowing you do care that much. And I am sure you must know there is a returning flood of love as deep and lasting... Now, darling I must close. In a few hours I am to see you. I hope and believe it will be a happy party. I know our little private celebration tomorrow with be happy. Goodnight, dearest, I shall be thinking of you as you read this. You know I love you deeply and tenderly- and all ways! -Rachel" p. 124-125 "Oh darling [Dorothy], Can you understand what it meant to me to have you take me into your heart as you did in that letter? I think perhaps you can if you will think about it and that should erase any possible lingering regret that you did write and did sent that letter: To be chose as the one to whom another feels she can communicate something so intimate, so sacred, so intangible that it is most difficult to express, is a very wonderful expeience, deraest, and makes me both deeply glad and humble. It was the first thing that came to my mind when I opened my eyes this morning. Please don't insist that the letter go into the Strong box (code word for destroying it) darling- atleast not immediately. It is very precious and wonderful- containing, or implying so much that is uniquely You- so many of the qualities that make me love you so dearly. Of course your deep sensitivity is one of that. It is not always a comfortable quality to possess, I know, but perhaps its rewards- the awareness of so much that is unnoticed and unappreciated by all but a few- and compensation. Last night on the train I told you I had such a strong sense of coming home to you. And how much of you I found! Darling! Looking back over what I've written, I don't seem to be saying all that I want to say, nor to be able to find words to do so. Perhaps for now it is enough to say that everything in your letter- your insight into the deeper meanings of the book, your response to the music, and your transfer of those emotions to your own personal situation- all make me love you even more deeply and tenderly than ever, if possible. And I am so glad I am to be with you so soon. Now I must go, darling. My dearest love -Rachel" (p.178) "Oh darling [Dorothy], It was so wonderful to feel last night that you might be with me soon. I do need you so... of course I long to show you the house and talk over plans for it. It is such a big thing in my life that it has grieved me not to have you part of it. But there are so many other reasons why I need you and want you! Oh please do say you'll come! And stay just as long as you can! I love you dearly, Rachel" p. 228 "My darling [Dorothy], It surely seems some Voice must have spoken to me this morning, telling me to call you...Darling, please don't ever feel you should withhold such news from me even if I'm sick. I want to know, always. Oh, you poor precious, I am so, so sorry. My heart aches for you...When you were talking this morning I was longing to put my arms around you and feel your head on my shoulder. If only I could go to you. But I know you understand my own health doesn't allow me to...and to your darling, my dearest, truest love -Rachel" p. 300 "My darling [Dorothy], You could not have wished for- or dreamed of- anything lovelier than the great box of freesias that arrived early this morning! They are a wonderful golden yellow- much like the color of those I raised- and each stalk is laden with perfect bells, and with so many buds I know I shall have them for many days. And all as dewy fresh as though they had just come from someone's springtime garden. I'm so glad they waited for these to come it! Darling, it was sweet and dear of you to do this. It brings you very close. If only I could talk to you every night now while you are so alone. Even while we're talking I feel so helpless and aware that I can't really do anything for you and I long to so desperately. I do wish there was someone there who could give you understanding and comfort... I love you dearly and tenderly and I'm so sorry. -Rachel" p. 300 "Darling [Dorothy], Just an extra word or two before I mail this. I have not really told you since our return how it warmed my heart to be with you again in your home, even for so short a time. It closed the long gap of years since I have been there. And I, too, loved the few moments we had all to ourselves." p. 309